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On the 10th of October 2017, my world fell apart. The doctor turned his computer screen around to show me the pictures of my brain MRI and said ‘You have MS.’
It was just like it happens in films, everything seemed to slow down. I could see the doctor was talking but I couldn’t hear what he was saying. It was like I had been winded, like I couldn’t breath. I just stared at him blankly.
‘Do you have any questions? Is there anything you want to ask?’ he prompted me. I knew as soon as I opened my mouth I would cry so I just shook my head and turned to my mum, who looked as shell shocked as I felt. I stood up to leave because I didn’t know what else to do, I just knew I needed to leave. And pretend this conversation had never happened.
Fast forward 3 months and I think I am over the shock of the diagnosis and I am ready for making a new normal to live by. I have looked on social media for some support but I am struggling to find anything that I can connect with. Everything MS related online is either too heavily medical or aimed for people a lot older than me. The blogs I have found all seem to be used as a place to vent and the well known forums out there seem to be used for a good moan.
I know connecting with people who understand fully what you are feeling helps some people to cope with what is happening to them but I feel like I am searching for a positive role-model who is showing the world that they are living life to the fullest and their little health niggle is just that, a niggle that can be some what ignored. I need someone out there to tell me everything will be OK and I am not going to deteriorate into a shell of my former self who can’t get out of bed.
Then I thought, if I can’t find what I am looking for, then why don’t I create it. Why don’t I become that positive role-model to give myself, and hopefully others, that hope I am searching for.
So here it is: Manchester Spirit blog. Lets live, love and learn together.