So this week saw the 1st anniversary of the terrorist attack at Manchester Arena, where 22 concert goers lost their lives and hundreds more were injured. As some of you will know, the name of this blog, Manchester Spirit, came from the strength and courage my home city showed in this time of extreme adversity.
Me and my mum went to the memorial service that was put on outside Manchester Cathedral. It was beautiful. The hymns and the readings that had been chosen were so perfect for the memorial and gave a message of hope and love, just as Manchester has shown for the last year. As it has been said many times: ‘We do things differently here.’
There were two movements going on that day in Manchester. One craft group had made hundreds of material hearts and hung them up around the city with tags on saying ‘Take me home, with love.’, and another group had enlisted children from the area to paint rocks and pebbles in different designs, again for people to take home with them. Both initiatives were designed to spread a little love and community spirit.
It got me thinking about people being kind to one another. Things like the ‘Random Act of Kindness’ that is popular at the moment. It is these things that will change the world and make it a better place to live in.
I then started to relate it to my fellow MS warriors and I would like to take it one step further. I think we should spend some time thinking about being kind to ourselves. I always have this niggle at the back of my mind when I sit down to ‘relax’ after a long day: ‘You could put the washer on…There are other things you could be doing…stop sitting around on your ass…’
Anyone else hear that little voice?
Since being diagnosed last year, I have noticed how tired I am all the time. I don’t know if it is my imagination because I know I have an autoimmune disease, or whether I just overdo it without realising but I need to learn that looking after myself has to be a priority now.
Not in a self obsessed way or anything but I do need to give myself some time each week to relax and be kind to myself.
I have never been a girly girl but I really enjoy having my nails painted. I have found a lovely girl who lives around the corner from me who does amazing nail art. I feel so much more confident when I have nice nails and gel polish lasts nearly 4 weeks so I was kind to myself this week and went to have my nails painted. It may sound like a small things but it brings me joy every time I see my hands and my beautiful nails. Because you know what? I am worth it. I am worth the money. I deserve the joy it brings me.
It was my birthday yesterday and with the money my family gave me, I have treated myself to a food processor. It is a 2 litre one, so not massive, but perfect for all of my culinary needs. There are so many recipes I want to try but a good portion of them need something blitzing. It seemed like such an extravagance but I know I will get a lot of use out of it. Again, it will bring me so much joy. I am worth it.
It is still a bit of an uphill struggle, learning to take time out of my busy week to be kind to myself, but I am getting there. I don’t want to crash and burn out, nor do I want to bring on a relapse because I am overdoing it. I am worth looking after. And I deserve to be keep myself healthy.
What things do you do to be kind to yourself? Any activities that bring you joy? Please tell me someone else hears that niggly voice in their head? If I am the only one who hears voices ,then I think I have a whole new problem to worry about…!!!!