Well, who would have thought we would be spending November hibernating like bears?
It’s a funny old one this time, I didn’t see it coming. Non essential shops being shut again, restaurants closed, everyone back to working from home. Word of the year ‘furlough’ scheme being reinstated.
Between me and you, I am relieved that I don’t have to go to work again for a few weeks. Seeing 100 plus people every day, and a different 100 each day of the week was way too many people for me to feel comfortable around. My anxiety about going to work was through the roof. As much as my boss had tried to put safety measures in place, there was a lack of social distancing and a complete lack of common sense in an area of the country that has been consistently ‘high risk’. Many customers were telling me: ‘Oh I had the whole family round for Sunday Lunch this weekend, I am not playing by the rules anymore.’
What I wanted to point out to them was, that everyone has the right to choose what is safe and comfortable for them. But who gave you the right to decide what was safe for me? As it can take up to 2 weeks for the germs to present themselves, who knows if you are carrying the germs with you and spreading it around my work place without my permission! Classic case of ‘You don’t look sick’. Just because I look OK, does not mean I am not higher risk than you! Even if I wasn’t high risk, it’s still not your choice to decide what I am comfortable with. Rude much.
Obviously, for the sake of keeping my job, I couldn’t tell them all that to their faces but hey ho.
Lockdown feels different this time. Last time, I felt a mixture of ‘what can I do with all this time!’ mixed with ‘how scary, it’s like an apocalypse!’ But this time, it feels almost like putting on an old pair of jeans. Normal? Like a past memory? Comforting?
Because it is winter now, I don’t feel the need to be going outside so much. Why would I want to be all cold and wet when I could snuggle inside in a woolly jumper with hot soup? Maybe because I don’t feel like I am missing out on outdoor activities, it is making this Lockdown less scary, as I feel like in Winter I would choose to be indoors anyway? Maybe.
So how are you spending your Lockdown 2.0? Are you picking up from where you left off? Going back to the big To-Do list and doing what wasn’t achieved the first time?
I can’t think about what Christmas is going to look like this year. It’s too heart-breaking. Old Boris is going to say people can mix for a few days over the festive period. I didn’t know the virus stopped spreading for bank holidays. If it is that simple to a deal with the virus, we really should send in our top negotiators…. I hope my sarcasm shines through here.
Obviously, I would love to spend Christmas with family I haven’t seen for nearly a year. But I will never forgive myself if I take germs to their bubble unknowingly and it kills them. Sorry to sound dramatic but that’s the truth of the matter. Just because I am not displaying symptoms doesn’t mean I am healthy. (The whole chronic illness family just said ‘familiar much?!’).
Instead of worrying about who will be able to meet over Christmas, I am trying to spend this Lockdown putting extra care and thought into the presents I buy this year, and the cards I make. Spreading love that way, to let friends and family know I love them even though we cannot be together.
Not going to lie, having Black Friday sales to look forward to as well is making the end of November seem a little less bleak. Not that my bank balance agrees!
So here is to keeping safe and doing what we can to keep each other healthy….again,
Let’s get through another…
…one step at a time.